Hello world! I hope everyone is doing well. I know it has been a while since I have posted anything but things haven’t been so good and I really didn’t want my blog to be super negative. There is already too much negativity in the world. I had a pretty good weekend and am now just sitting in my bed so I figured this is a good time to update. I am in a pretty decent mood right now, so I will touch on everything that has been going on. Nothing should be too negative. There are some really great things that have happened too but I will save that for last. So without further ado…
To say that this semester has not been going well is an understatement. The workload has been almost impossible. I am required to stay at school for all kinds of extra class sessions, academic assistance, and professor meetings. I get home really late and have a hard time staying up to do anything. I’ve been exhausted, irritated, and STRESSED. There have been many tears for sure. The stress has really taken a toll on me. I have been having blood pressure problems. It has been so high… too high. I got with my doctor about it and am taking the appropriate steps to lower it.
It’s not just me though. It seems like my whole class is having a hard time. Some people are not the same as they were last semester. Everyone is on edge. Some people can’t get along. Peoples true colors are coming out and my circle of friends has shifted for sure. There are a few people that I know I will be friends with forever but many people that I hung around with last semester are kind of out of the picture now. Nothing bad happened; the “climate of law school” kind of changed.
It just seems like, since the beginning of the semester, there has been something that has gone wrong. It started out with my dad being in a crash and the crap has not stopped. Hopefully it will be smooth sailing from here on out.
Anyway, I don’t want to talk too much about the bad stuff when so many good things have happened too. I feel like I have not been able to really see the good stuff because I have been so caught up with everything else. So now for the good things…
A few weeks ago my school hosted the pre-law day that I went to last year. (I wrote an earlier blog about when I went). It was really strange to be on the other side. I talked with some of the new students and realized, I’m not the newbie anymore. The new 1L class was talking to me and looking at me like I might be made of magic. That’s the same way I thought of the students I met that day when I went. I cannot believe that it has already been a year. In a few months, I’ll be a 2L!
One of the new students asked me if law school was fun. I kind of laughed nervously and told her that it wasn’t so much fun as it is an unforgettable experience. Let’s face it, she won’t ever forget her time in law school. HA. It was refreshing to see them though. They were so full of excitement and hope like I was. It’s not that I am not excited and hopeful. I do love law school, as miserable as it is. I guess I have just settled into the life of a law student. It’s weird to even say that. I never thought in a million years I’d be here. I am thankful.
Last week I had a happy day. My mom came with me to school and waited for me to be finished (I only had one class), and then we went suit shopping and had lunch. I have to observe court this week. It was so nice to be carefree for an afternoon. I didn’t find a suit but I did find a dress and a blouse to wear for court. I know I have said it before, but the little things like shopping with your mom and having lunch, really end up being the big things, the bright lights in the darkness of law school. These days and moments are all you have to hold on to when you get bogged down with school work. It’s the only bit of a normal life you get.
Also, my school has a fully functional courtroom and each spring, the state supreme court holds court there. We were required to go for my legal writing class. It was amazing. Being that it was the Supreme Court, we had to go through security. Once I got past security, I walked in the courtroom and it was so quiet. I whispered to my friend that it felt like church. There was something about sitting there in the quiet with my classmates. We are the next lawyers. It was exhilarating and terrifying all at once. The justices came in and we all stood up. All I could think at that point was “OMG I’m actually in law school”. I still can’t believe that this is where I am at after all that time of swearing I would never go. HAHA. (Never say never). Anyway, each side’s lawyers got up and said their piece and then I realized, they are nervous. They were stuttering and sweating. The justices were giving them hell and they were actually nervous. At this point, I remembered my presentation last semester and my professor interrupting me constantly. At that time I thought she was just being mean. It turns out she was actually preparing me for the future. Overall, it was a really good experience. I just wish I had not been under so much stress so I could have really taken it in. It’s like my head was not clear.
Ok, so I saved the best thing for last... I got an internship in Colorado for the summer! I found out earlier this week but it really didn’t sink in until the last few days. It’s at an animal law firm in Denver. I’m going to have an adventure this summer. I need to start looking for pet friendly housing. I actually searched for short-term housing in Denver for some employees when I was at my last job. I had prepared a document with all the options for my boss. I think I will call him and ask him if he can send me the document so I can get started looking. My new boss at my internship advised me to take a vacation before I start and I really think that I will. I may go to visit my cousins in Canada. Who knows… I am just really happy that I got an internship in my field of law. It’s hard to get animal law internships.
Other than all of this, things have just been kind of going along. It’s been like white water rafting, in a storm, when you lost your paddle, and your raft popped. HA. I laugh but it really has been like that. I am really hoping that things go well from now on. Finals are just around the corner. I am just ready to be done with this semester and ready to say goodbye to being a 1L.
I know this was a really long blog but I have been behind and a lot of stuff has happened. LOL I will try to update more regularly. Please keep me in your prayers. I need them now more than ever. As always, all of your love, kind words, and encouragement mean the world to me. Many days, it is what keeps me going. Much love to all of you. Talk soon.