This past semester was hard but then again every semester in law school has been hard. The two weeks that I was hard studying for finals was extremely stressful for me. I was locked in my room for 17 hours a days studying and memorizing the law. To top it off, the day of my last exam it snowed so my school cancelled the test. This meant that the misery had to go on even longer. I was just ready for it to be over and get started with my Christmas break. Plus, I had tickets for the Nutcracker Ballet as a celebration after finals. I ended up still going to the ballet even though I still had a final to take. It was a fun time away from all the studying for sure.
I will say that I was the most prepared for finals this semester than any other semester in law school. I did start studying earlier than I usually do. Also, I feel like I wrote my exams better with more clarity and I was able to recall the law exactly as it is written for the test. It must be true because as my grades roll in this semester, I have all A’s and B’s. I am still waiting on two more grades but I am so happy about them so far considering the amount of stress I was under during my studying. I meditated so much during that time.
Prior to finals, I would never meditate because I was so scared that I would cry. It’s weird, I know. A few weeks back, I went to a moon mediation at my yoga studio and I meditated for the first time in a real way. It was amazing and yes, I did cry but the urge to cry is all gone now and I can meditate in a meaningful way now. My favorite yoga teacher told me about a meditation app called Insight Timer which has all these meditations for free. Most of the good apps charge so I am so grateful that this one is free! It’s amazing and I highly recommend it. Since I started meditating regularly now, I have become more at peace with myself and others. It helps me get to sleep and find a truly deep sleep. During the stress of finals I was able to clear my head and focus on my breath and mindfulness which was a game changer for me. It sounds crazy but it works! Try it out!
Anyway, since finals have been over, I have been doing so many things. First, I have been renovating my 1974 vintage Airstream with my dad. We pulled up all the carpet which was so gross. We repaired a little soft spot in the flooring. We will be caulking it up and putting down new flooring. I found a really beautiful grey wood flooring from Home Depot for it which will look amazing. We will also be painting the walls and other small modifications. I do love the vintageness of the trailer so I am keeping that 70’s feel to it. I want it to be somewhat zen because I want it to be a little safe haven where I can do a little yoga, diffuse essential oils, burn incense, and meditate during the stress of studying for the bar exam. Of course, after the bar, I will be globetrotting in it wherever I am called to be. When we get further along, I will post before and after pics. I cannot wait to share with you guys.
Next, I have been going through all of my old stuff and sorting it out for a garage sale. I hate doing it I wish I didn’t have to because it is surprisingly painful to go through all of this old stuff. I’m really sentimental and it’s hard to get rid of all of the things that made up such a big part of my life and childhood. I keep reminding myself that I want to live a life collecting memories and not things. I know that all these things will only hold me back from living the life that I want to live so much of it has to go. I still hate it though.
The last big thing that I have been up to is making preparations for after law school which I need to do a lot more of. I did apply for a dream job but I don’t know if I will get it. I have been looking into other things after law school which I will talk about in another blog later. I’ve been trying not to freak out about the bar. I do need to schedule a hotel room so that I do not have to worry about that later. I will probably do that tonight. Other than these big things, I have been getting a little bit of down time.
My mom and I went Christmas shopping a lot and it was so much fun.I missed just hanging out with her. We laughed a lot and made silly snapchat videos. We ate out and just enjoyed the holiday season. It was so much fun that I am actually depressed that the holiday is over. I wish I could have frozen this time forever. Honestly, I’m so scared about everything that is to come within the next few months.
My last semester of law school ever will be starting in a few weeks. My long time readers will remember how scared I was when I quit my job and came to law school. Well, that fear was nothing compared to what this is. My life is going to change in so many big ways in a short about of time. What if I make the wrong choices? What if I cannot find a job? What if I do badly on the bar exam? What if I fail? My entire life depends on this. What’s really scary to think about is that I will be over-qualified for any other position that I ever had before because I’ll be a law school graduate. The pressure is really on. I’ve been just taking baby steps in preparation for the future and hoping that God catches me if I fall. Please send up an extra prayer for me because I need it. (Thanks in advance).
Ok, so I hope you all enjoyed reading this post. I will be posting something really fun soon, hopefully this week sometime. I hope all of my sweet readers had a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. Talk to you guys soon.