I didn’t want to talk about it because I felt like if I talked about it, the decision I made would be real. I know, I know, it sounds crazy but it’s the way I felt. Even now, I still wonder if I made the right choice…
Anyway, I applied to another law school...and got in! I would have never considered leaving my current law school. I am relatively happy there; however, this law school that I applied to isn’t just any law school. It is a school that has a fantastic program for animal law that would have opened up so many opportunities for me. I didn’t know about the school until after I was almost finished with my first year of law school at my current school.
When I applied, I figured that if didn’t get in it was no big deal. I actually didn’t think I would get into this school in a million years. Then one day I got the letter in the mail saying “Hey, we want you!” Even now I can’t believe it and I will always consider this acceptance an accomplishment.
For various reasons, I was not able to accept the invitation. This caused and still does cause me so much heartbreak. It will forever remain one of those “what-if’s” of life. I will always wonder how my life might have been different if I would have gone. How it would have been to take another road in life. I do feel...sad about it BUT I know that staying at my current law school I am able to do things I would have never been able to do there. At the other school, I feel like the road was already paved for me. At my current school, it’s a blank slate, a wide open field and I get to pave the way for myself and other students. (All of this will make more sense in my next post. Amazing things have been happening).
During the summer, at yoga one day, one of the girls and I were talking about life and how we want to live somewhere else but the time just isn’t right. She told me that she was going to do all that she could to do good things here so that when she left, she would leave it a little better. How I love this idea! I love that I have the chance to bring change at my current law school so that when I do leave, I will leave knowing that things are a little better because of me. I just want my time here to be meaningful!
Ok, so that’s it! The secret is out! I am still making peace with myself. As things unfold for me this semester, I am able to find more and more peace each day. Some things in this post will make so much more sense after my next post! Keep an eye out for it, it is coming very soon! Thanks for all the love! Talk soon!