The last few weeks I have been trying to balance my school work and sleep. I am still passing out from exhaustion during the weeknights. I get what I can done. Most of my work is done on the weekends. I am putting in 14-16 hours per day of non-stop school work on Saturdays and Sundays. I put in about 8 hours on Friday nights. Sadly, nothing is ever "done". Law school is no joke and I now have a new appreciation for attorneys everywhere.
Currently, I am slaving over my memo for Legal Writing. We have no final for this class. Sooooo, this memo is our final grade. The pressure is on for sure. It's so hard to just focus on that because for all my other classes, assignments are due as a well. For example, I have a litigation chart that is due for Civil Procedure, daily quizzes in Torts and Legal Writing, hand-written briefs for Criminal Law, a hypothetical for Contracts, etc. That's not even half of it. However, I will spare all of you the boring details.
I have been meeting with the TA's for assistance. Some of them are super helpful and some of them... not so much. I have come to realize that they are just students too and while their input is appreciated and is sometimes helpful, they don't know everything. It's just so scary with finals on the way. I just want to make sure I am on the right track.
Also, the claws have come out for sure among my classmates. Everyone was so great at first, however; since we are all basically in competition with each other, it has become dog eat dog. My close group is great and I am still very blessed to have them. I just want to keep my feet on the ground and be kind to everyone. No matter what, kindness matters most. It's so hard though because when you see that your classmate is being rude or trying to gain an advantage over you, you want to get mad and you're upset but I just try to remember why I am in law school. I am here because there is a lack of kindness in the world and I want to bring justice to the world's animals. If I cannot even be kind to my classmates who are trying to undermine me, then I have no right to fight for justice anywhere.
Anyway, not that I have much of a personal life, I do have a few things that I want to mention that were great the last few weeks. First, my dad came back! It was so great to see him. The weekend that he came back, I got all my school work done, got groceries for him, got dinner for us and got his house together for him. I headed to the airport and I was waiting there for him with butterflies in my belly! It was so great to see him after so long and so many sad things had happened. Sadly, I have not seen him as much as I would like because of school.
Next, two weekends ago, a long lost friend from high school came in from California. I managed to get my school work "caught up" and was able to go out with him for a while. It was so nice to see him. It was wonderful to see how he changed yet was still the same boy I remember all those years ago.
Lastly, this past weekend was pretty miserable. My little dog, who will be 14 in December, gave me a scare. She has had a few problems over the last year. She has these episodes of syncope which is basically fainting. Tests were run and nothing super significant was found. Her globulin levels are elevated but no one knows why. It could be a number of things we just don't know what. I have brought her back and forth to a specialist who is three hours away and I had to go again on Sunday. She was exhibiting neurological symptoms. This totally ruined my studying but I would do anything for this dog. She has been with me so long. I could never go on without my dear friend.
Anyway, this post is far from what I wanted it to be but I didn't have much time. I did want to update everyone because I miss talking to you guys and there are a lot of messages, invites, and events that I have to ignore because, let's face it, law school is my boyfriend and demands all my attention. I will do my very best to update again soon. If anyone has any questions about law school or words of wisdom, please send them my way. Prayers are also appreciated. I am only getting through this because of God.
Ok, so I do have to go. It's already past midnight and I have to be up at 5:00 a.m. I hope you all have a lovely night. Until next time...